The real moments. It’s the moments that I realize that the emotions and hard ships of committing to a year away to be developed and commit myself to him. Those moments are happening more and more as I go. This World Race has way more emotions than what I was prepared for. It’s getting real 2 months before I go.
The verse Micah 6:8 “He has made it clear to you, mortal man, what is good and what the LORD is requiring from you— to act with justice, to treasure the LORD’s gracious love, and to walk humbly in the company of your God.”
I know what he has demanded of me and what he requires of me. Now I must go and walk with him through these moments.
Moments like:
-Handing off my business to be ran by someone else that I built for 8 years, that was my life purpose for those years.
-Realizing I won’t do Mother’s Day and Father’s Day with my family next year.
-Saying goodbye to friends that I won’t see for a year and a half because they go home for the summer. The pain of knowing I won’t do life with them for that time while I am gone, and I won’t have them.
-Packing for training camp and realizing I am actually doing this. I am meeting my squad and I am scared and excited all at the same time. Its like the first day of school all over again, but the adult version.
-Realizing I won’t be able to attend a dear friend’s wedding because I will be gone.
-Realizing I don’t anything about camping gear and how expensive it is.
-Realizing I have never bought Chaco’s before and changing out my cowboy boots for Chaco’s is stretch.
-Realizing I have 30 days left and I graduate from college.
-Realizing I have 5 more Sundays to go to church before I am gone.
All these emotions bundled up have caused a lot of pain, a couple tears, excitement, and a feeling that I am not big enough or good enough for this. But knowing that God should be my priority in my life and probably for the first time in my life making him the priority has been freeing and a challenging step of faith. The next week I will be at training camp in Georgia to see what I am made of and to meet and develop friendships with my team. I would ask for you to pray as I feel anxious and scared but also very excited.
Also, through monthly support donations committed while I am on the race and donations already given, I have reached an incredible $10,210 total raised for the World Race and I am over halfway. If you have already given, thank you, if you haven’t please pray about it. I would greatly appreciate your prayers and wisdom as I go. I know my entire life I have needed time, patience, wisdom, encouragement and a team to build me up. This is no different. Will you help me change my life and be apart of my team?
