The reality is setting in. I have to raise $15,800. So many people have given. So many of my friends have given what they can. A dear friend painted pictures for me to sale. I have seen so many people’s generosity pour out in efforts to help me reach my goals. I have emailed every person I can think of. As much as people give I am still failing to reach my goals.
I have seen God show me not to give up. When I started to lose faith someone anonymously donated $1,000. If you’re reading this, thank you from the bottom of my heart. When I started to lose faith God showed me that a woman I had never met before would donate over $800 just to support the work I will soon be doing. God has been showing up at times when I started to drop my head. So, in this season where I am constantly worried about money I ask God to be with me. I ask that he shows me what he needs from me. What are you trying to teach me from this?
So I wrote this:
I am chasing adventure.
I am chasing YOU.
A life with you is an adventure.
A life of new and real people.
I said “yes” to nine months of spending my life with you.
I am devoting my life to you in hopes that you will take over my life after the World Race and all through it.
I don’t want to walk through life anymore without you.
I wanna know your story, your life.
You know my story.
I’d be a fool not to live it out.
If this means sacrificing my money, every last penny, then that’s what I’ll do.
I’ll sacrifice for you, just like you did for me.
If my money means I get to save from one person from a life without you, then that’s what I’ll do.
So today I pray that God shows me what he needs. Today I know with my whole heart that this is where God wants me. Right in this moment this is what I am supposed to be doing. I don’t know why other people are fully funded, when I am failing to even reach the $5,000 goal. I trust that he’ll show me what the purpose of all of this is for. I won’t ever stop chasing you and chasing this adventure.
