Two years ago on October 27th around 3:30 pm, I slipped my white lace dress on, I placed my pearls around my neck and my hair was curled and braided to the side. It was the day I had dreamed about for so long, it was my wedding day. Excitement filled my heart as I walked down the aisle holding my bouquet of yellow and red sunflowers. All my friends and family gathered to celebrate. I could only picture forever as I said my vows, but forever would be short lived.
As I look back on that day, it is still beautiful in my eyes. Even though my marriage did not last, it doesn’t change my view of how beautiful marriage can be. Lately, God has been dealing with my heart a lot over things which have happened the last two years. This is not a blog about a detailed description of my life, but instead a look at the most glorious wedding day to the bridegroom of all bridegrooms.
At training camp, one of my mentors referred to Jesus as a perfect gentleman. At first I did not quite grasp what she was talking about, but I am coming to understand it more. Jesus pursues us with a passionate, yet gentle, perfect love. His love is never failing. His love is not self-seeking. It does not find fault and it keeps no record of wrongs. He has never left me nor forsaken me not for a moment. He loves me when I am distant. He loves me when I am moody. He loves me in my sweats with no make up on. He loves me when I am at my worst. He loves me when I am at my breaking point. He loves to hear me laugh and see me smile. He loves to listen to me when I rant on about miscellaneous things. He loves to celebrate with me when I excell at something. He supports me and cheers me on. He is my biggest fan. He forgives me instantly when I am stubborn or angry. He protects me in the midst of storms. He provides all my needs. His love is unfailing and unconditional. He is my true bridegroom.
He patiently awaits his bride for the perfect wedding day. Soon, that glorious wedding day will occur when I can meet my Jesus face to face. I will be dressed in white, not because it is a tradition, but because Jesus has clothed me in white and sees me as pure in his eyes. The wedding bells start to ring the most beautiful sound. The ceremony is the most gorgeous with white lilies and golden aisle to walk down. As I walk toward my groom, my heart flutters because this is a day I have dreamed of for so long. The vows are not just lofty words that you can back out on. Instead, they are words with so much meaning and an everlasting commitment. Jesus is mine and I am his. I am redeemed and made new for eternity. This is a marital covenant that will never end in divorce. It will never give up. It will never find something better. Jesus, my bridegroom has chosen me and I have chosen him.
Revelation19:7 “Let us rejoice and be glad and give him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come and his bride has made herself ready. Fine linen bright and clean, was given to her to wear.”
Marriage is so much more than just loving another person, it is an everlasting covenant. A commitment to be everything you can be to another person, to love them unconditionally. It is pure and holy. Wedding days are beautiful because they symbolize two becoming one just as we should long to be made one in Christ on our Glorious wedding day in heaven.
Yes, my earthly marriage did not last, but I look forward to beauty of the heavenly one. I prayed God would allow me to the see the beauty through the brokenness and he has answered that prayer. Marriage is beautiful and holy. It is God’s symbolism of his redemptive work in mankind. He beckons and pursues his children with such amazing love. The bridegroom is ready awaiting at the end of the aisle, for you to slip on your white and be joined with him as one.
Isaiah 54:5-7 “For your maker is your husband, The Lord almighty is his name, the Holy one of Israel is your redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth. The Lord will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit, a wife who married young, only to be rejected. For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with deep compassion I will bring you back.”
