This weekend was the first time this all became real. The first time I actually took a step back and said to myself, really?!? God you have called me to do what? To raise how much for what?! This whole grandiose idea of reaching others on the other side of the world for Christ is actually my life, in my future, my now.
This is real life (the one that everyone keeps saying will come after graduation) and Christ has called me to run, to fight the good fight alongside of Him who gives true grace, love, and eternal life.
Amid all the doubts swirling in my head about enlarged bugs I’ll encounter, the language barriers to jump over, the places with no plumbing, living 11 months from one backpack, how to raise the money needed to go, or if I can even do this whole thing God was whispering comforts in my ear; I just needed to listen.
I was driving and listening to a Christian radio station as they were broadcasting a Hillsong conference (for those who don’t know its an Australian mega-church with a rather famous Christian band). The pastor was speaking about a song they had written called “Oceans.” That’s when one of the lyrics in this song, that might possibly be overplayed hit me. The whole song really is powerful and I encourage everyone to look up the lyrics but these, right here, are what God had planned for me to hear:
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
I don’t even think I can follow up after that thought! God has literally never failed me, at any moment. Even when I didn’t want to hear from Him. He will never fail on my future either. Simple thoughts right? Maybe not.
I am giving it up, the doubt. God has a plan even when I am completely blind.
He will not fail me and I know this is a PROMISE.
Matthew 6:25-34
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
This has been giving me so much encouragement and I hope something within this blog touches your heart as well. Thank you again for making it to the bottom 
