These past two weeks have been FULL of so many emotions!
I started off by thinking about the crazy/awesome fact that this adventure is two weeks away! Hello, that’s so soon. I can’t wait to dive into new friendships, new cultures, and experiencing God in new ways. This is going to be 100% GREAT!
After this thrill of going up the emotional roller coaster I started to think “why/what the heck am I doing?!” This mostly came from the fact the I was packing for the year. I have about 60lbs worth of stuff for the year…… like in two backpacks…… for the year…….WHAT?
Panic and anxiety was next. Why do I have to leave so many people, for an entire 11 months? That’s so long. They’ll forget about me, nothing will be the same, will it?So many questions about why and what I signed up for.
Next came apathy. I was just thinking to myself, it is what it is. Leaving is still like 7 days away. There is nothing more I can do to prepare.
Then as I was driving and listening to a podcast one day it clicked.
Hope
It was from my church in Noblesville, in Indiana, and the title was “Making Room for Mission.” The message was about giving your time and everything else to God so that he can actually work in you and through you wherever you are; well that at least that’s what I got! I even heard a similar message from a different church this past Sunday. God has really been speaking to me through the life of Jesus the past week. Jesus gave up sleep, a bed, comfortable-ness, meals, his time, his mother and father, his previous life, to do God’s will. To live the life he was born to. I am being asked to do the same.
Matthew 16:25
[Jesus says to his disciples] For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.
I truly and fully believe I will find more life in this year than ever before. God has gone before me to prepare a path for me to walk in, with him, that is full of his perfect, beautiful love. I am 100% confident leaving tomorrow knowing this.
Now for the best picture collage of the last month of saying “goodbye” and just of people I love with my whole dang heart!
Thank you for making it to the bottom and I can’t wait to share with you all again!
PS. As an added bonus for making to the bottom here are some incredible lyrics from a song called “Come Away,” that I have found so much comfort in this past month:
Come away with me, Come away with me
It’s never too late, it’s not too late
It’s not too late for you
I have a plan for you
I have a plan for you
It’s gonna be wild
It’s gonna be great
It’s gonna be full of me
Open up your heart and let me in
