Worth

I stand for worth.

I stand for worth that is not found in this world. I am declaring, no demanding, that my worth be found in the Lord. I have gone far too long finding my worth in fleeting, insignificant things.

I have found my worth in what college or graduate school I am accepted in. I have found my worth in being the center of attention, in how packed my planner is, and in the amount of friends I have. I have found my worth in people’s opinions of me and in the grade on the top of the paper. I have found my worth in the leadership positions I do or do not receive and even in how many fraternity events I get invited to.

And you guessed it. None of these things left me with the feeling of unconditional worth.

So now, I am deciding to listen to what truth Jesus has been telling me all along. I am choosing to find my worth in what my God thinks of me, and let me tell yah, He calls me beloved (Matthew 3:17).

He says that I am worth more than sparrows (Matthew 10:31) and more valuable than rubies (Proverbs 3:15).

Sometimes I ask, “Hey God. Really? Me? But my hair is greasy and I have a few grad school rejection letters in my garbage can. I have a zit on my chin, I wasn’t even close to a 4.0 in college, and I would definitely not categorize my body as “summer ready.”’

And He says, “Yes Hil. You are my masterpiece.”

So I am going to find my worth, not in what I do or what I look like, but in what has been gloriously done for me. My God died for all my past, present, and future sins so that I, His daughter, can find my worth in Him. My God overcame the world so He can softly whisper to me that He is delighted with me even when I think I fall short. Now, I find my worth in the Lord, and I rest confidently in His eternal arms when He tells me that He loves me, and that I am always worthy.