Soul care is a time where you can choose to be led by the Holy Spirit through a painful memory in your life, by bringing life and truth (Jesus) into them. Before you go into a memory this is the question that I should ask my self.
Lord, will you show me a time that I felt closest to you?
This is back in India, 4 years ago. This is the backyard of the place we were living. You can see to the left there is a thick wall. On the other side of that wall is the slums that we would often prayer-walk through. It’s hard to see in the picture but where the wall ends there is a lake (if you could even call it that!). There was more garbage than water, so therefore we called it trash lake. Beside the lake there is place we called “The Jungle”, we were told that the 5ft cobra lived back there. For those of you who don’t know I am terrified of snakes, which is another cool story in itself! Check out my new blog coming up soon about that!. And if I look to my right there is a hindu temple, where our upstairs neighbours would worship 3x a day.
I would sit on top of this concrete block often, I would spend time with Jesus there.
Jesus, where are you in this memory?
Then I saw him sitting right beside me. He kept pointing to these 4 things and wanting me to look at them again and again. He would say:
“Look at the wall, I’m here.”
“Now look at the jungle, I am here”
“Look at the temple, I am still here”
“See trash lake over there? I’m still here!”
Then I understood, Jesus was trying to show me something pretty cool. I have thought about this place a lot over the past 4 years, but never have I had this realization: all 4 of the areas I described above meant something, they represented different areas of my life.
The wall represented the things that I try to keep hidden from God and others.
The jungle represented my fears and worries.
The temple represented the times that I decide to worship other things, when I put things before Jesus.
The lake represented all the things that I think are worthless about myself and my experiences.
I have known that God is always with me. I’ve heard it since before I was born. But God reminded me in the way he knows would get through to me, with pictures, the way that He knew he could get through to me.
