Throughout my life, I have lived within the boudaries of Fear. I froze with fear and became what I thought other people wanted me to become. Since coming to know the Lord, he has begun to break down those walls but the anxieties that I experience are still there.
My fear last week was will I ever be ready emotionally for this trip? One that is going to take me completely and utterly out of my comfort zone? Will my heart be prepared for such a huge leap of faith? Does God know what he is doing with my heart? Fear has lead me down paths of doubt, paths that are not leading me into freedom but leading me into a cage where the door is shut locked. Jesus has opened the door and yet I still hide in the corner. My first step is to take His hand and let Him guide me.
My big question is will my heart ever be ready? I have a decision to make. Leave it in my hands…no, it will never be ready But put it in the Father’s hands, and he will shape me and mold my heart in His time and with His power.
“The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.” 2 Corinthians 10:4-6
