After God whispered to my heart and told me of His calling for me to go on the World Race: Gap Year, I had no idea how restless I would get in the seasons to come. These last couple of months have been chaotic yet secretly glorious. Throughout all of the changes that have come my way, God remains. His kindness is unwavering and His smile never fades. He has worked his shining and joyful presence into my most taxing moments. While I have faced trials and struggled with seemingly impossible decisions and disheartening overthinking, God has been there to teach me, guide me, and just be with me. It is quite hilarious that we feel that we must do and say and commit to countless things yet the almighty one fulfills His colossal role by simply just being.
So when I think about my years to come and my deep rooted desire to help people, I am drawn to share the euphoria that God brings to my heart. When I say this, I don’t mean a quick burst of happiness that drifts away when my mind goes awry. Even when we are confused or not “feeling it,” God’s steady presence remains. All God wants to do is guide us so that we can guide others to Him, and this miraculously simple calling leaves me to bask in His love and be content in His guidance.
The World Race means that I will be able to share with the hearts that God has called me to. I am a medium God is using to reveal His mercy and grace to longing hearts. I have no doubt in my heart that a mission field can mean the neighborhood I grew up in or the local Wal-Mart, but I also firmly believe that God has called me to this specific endeavor of His love. I know that much, and I am beyond excited to continue to uncover the myteries that God will soon reveal to my heart as to why he is calling me to this journey.
While right now I am viewing this mission trip with a “big picture” mindset, the small moments that I experience in Thailand, India, and Costa Rica are what really will add value to this journey. Mission work may mean long chats with a local or serving at an orphange, and I can not wait to see God’s unique definition of missions he has planned for my life.
pockets in the sky 05/05/19
you’ve sewn pockets in the sky
treats sunken deep
we only have to dig a little, we only have to try
to escape the futile abundance around us
& find the undecorated truth that lye
amongst the threads of Your love labored
no need for us to search low and hugh
for we only need a moment to bask
in the overflowing simplicity of Your creations that tie
together our hidden beauty with what we see
for while we look up at the sky in awe
our hearts are being sewn into treasures for the rest to find
in order to open their eyes
to all the little pockets that You gave already etched into their skies
our life is filled with secret moments
that give us all the value that we need
yet we waste our days restlessly searching
for complex reasons as to why we were sent
h. stewart
