As many of you know out of the blue my back was injured at the end of last month. (I want to thank everyone for your prayers, concern, and encouraging words) I don't know how it happened or why it started but it was a several day process that got worse and worse the day before leaving for our next continent.
The night before we left my teammates and I prayed that I would be healed but nothing happened. I was praying against everything I could think of; I was proclaiming everything over myself that I could think of. It was several hours of proclaiming Gods healing over my body in every way that my teammates or I could think of and still nothing happened.
I cried out in pain and in faith that my God is bigger than this and I don't need to take any medicine because He is the ultimate physician. My head started to spin as so many questions ran through my head about why I was not healed and why this thing that I believe in so much that happens for everyone else never happens to me. I went to sleep tossing and turning all night and still praying over myself that in the morning I would be healed. I finally gave up and just wanted to quit.
The next morning as everyone was getting up to pack and clean I laid in bed crying in excruciating pain. I called my friend Annie for medical advice and she was amazing. She ran all over town trying to find medicine or anything that could help with the pain so we could leave the country. Come to find our that there is a band on pain killers in Ukraine and unless you are dying. Annie got me an appointment at the doctors office and I was able to get a muscle relaxer, steroid, and a vitamin B complex shot to help with the pain. (Yes they are very holistic in this country) anyways. It gave me enough relief to make the decision that I could leave in 2 hours.
With the help of my amazing teammates that packed my bags, ran around the city to get my prescriptions, allowed me to hang on their backs, and cry all over them in pain we made it on to the train by the grace of God. I was able to lay down for 18 hours on the train and make it to our next destination.
As soon as we got there I was able to lay in the hostile for a couple days see a doctor that once again told me I couldn't get anything that helped the pain but she was able to give me a steroid. The new medications helped a lot more and after two days of laying in the bed I was finally getting better.
As I laid in bed for many days in the solitude the enemy tried to have a field day. Many thoughts went through my head: why did I have to got to a doctor for shots when I follow the ultimate physician, I am known as the person that prays for healing and I can't even heal myself, etc. The Lord however showed me that He wanted to spend time with me and that what the enemy meant for bad He is using for good.
He took me to Hebrews 11:1 "now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." He showed me that I have unshakable faith in healing and that this is just a test to show me that I am unwavering.
I also learned that I have to be more attentive to when The Lord tells me to move and when He tells me to be still and that I need to allow other to help me. I am very glad that I was able to spend time with Jesus and get A LOT of quiet time. It was not easy for me to allow others to help, wash my hair, put my socks on, or give me shots in the butt (So grateful and thankful for my best friend Lauren who was amazing during this time. She not only comforted me but also my family allowing them to know that someone was taking good care of me. I love you and am so blessed to have a friend like you!)
On the other side of this season I am doing amazing. The Lord is good. He is faithful and for the last couple of days I have been in minimal to no pain at all. I am very thankful for the quality time that I was able to spend with The Lord and that He brought me through this fire and I can see clearly that what the enemy meant for bad He used for good.
I want to thank everyone for your prayers and intercession on my behalf. I know that I would not be in such high spirits and healed as quickly without you all. I love you all very much and am so grateful to have a power house, prayerful, loving, and believing family back home to war for me!
