So y’all I officially leave for launch tomorrow and leave for India Monday. To say I wasn’t prepared for the goodbyes is an understatement, I have cried more in the last 10 days then I have in my entire life (how I haven’t run out of tears yet is beyond me) Seriously though no one can prepare you or your heart to tell the people, the places, your family and your friends goodbye for 11 months. Its pretty hard to grasp that I’ll miss 11 months of life as I’ve always known it to be.
This picture is kinda what I’ve felt for the past week I keep asking God to turn the pages back a few times to relive the last 11 months I’ve spent preparing for this, to take me back through all the adventures I’ve experienced in the past year just one more time. Life I think can be compared to reading a really good book, we can fall in love with the first couple of chapters but then soon realize the next chapters are going to be different than you expected. The book isn’t over and you loved the last chapter so much that you want to keep flipping back, you want to reread all the stuff you already know. You basically flip to your favorite parts and don’t really give the next chapter time to become one of your favorites. But I know that like any good book the best part is the next chapter, the best part is when you keep reading and learning more when you trust that even though the first couple of pages seemed hard the chapter will and always does get better. This is like what I’m currently going through I’ve had to say many very hard goodbyes and let go of a lot of things I’m going to miss while I’m on the race, I can’t exactly say that these next pages don’t scare me and make me wanna flip back but I am trusting in God’s plan, that his plan is bigger than mine and that he will bring me peace even in the toughest pages. I know that this book isn’t over yet and that God has big plans for this next chapter. Peace
XOXO
Heather
