I frequently find myself wanting to go home recently. It would be easier to deal with my house and be there for my family if I was home. I could prepare for what God is laying on my heart to do next in life. I could see my friends and go to my church. So, I find myself secretly hoping I don’t meet the next deadline so I can go home. I just want to go home!
Then I think…how can I be so selfish? Selfish! God has called me to go. He has sent me to the nations. He wants me to love the lost and hurting and partner with ministries to further His kingdom. He wants me to be an answer to prayers. How can I selfishly want to go home?
Isn’t this a battle we all face everyday? Okay, I know most of you are not as far away from home as me. So how can you be facing the same battle? My battle is simply wanting to do what I desire instead of what God has called me to do. I want to do my plans instead of His. Are you struggling with choosing God’s plans over yours?
So, I have realized that I continually need to go to the cross. I need to lay down my plans, my hopes, my desires, my everything at the cross. I need to lay down everything and pick up the cross daily. I need to fully walk in God’s will for my life. I’ve been praying and seeking God for direction. Am I just homesick or is God changing my heart for a reason? I know that if I am meant to stay on the World Race then God will bring in all the money for the next deadline in just over 2 weeks. In the mean time, I’m going to lay down my everything every day and take up the cross.
I encourage you to do the same. Seek God for His will in your life. As you seek Him take your everything to Him and lay it down so you can take up His cross. Sacrifice is one of the hardest things to do. But if we sacrifice what we want for what God wants for us then we will see that His plans are even better than anything we had in mind!
So this is my prayer: Lord, I just want to go home, but I’ve committed myself to You and I want to do Your will, not my own. Show me Your will Lord and give me strength to keep doing it! Daily I give myself away, my desires, my dreams, my plans. Lord fill me up with your desires and dreams and plans instead because Your ways are far better than mine!
