horrible just slightly painful when it comes to swallowing. It is a
little mind boggling that I could have any sickness in my body given the
mass of garlic I have consumed in the last few days. Being the
naturally curious person that I am I decided to take my handy dandy
flash light out to look at it. I wanted to see what is causing my pain- I
think on some level I was looking for power over the pain by knowing
what it looks like and watching it progress. As I was looking at my
throat in the mirror I thought- “I should take a picture of this and
include it with my next blog…” Then I had the realization that would
probably be considered gross by most people and not many would be as
fascinated by it as I am. (basically, not an effective tool to keep
people reading this blog)
I think it is funny that as fascinating as creation is, it is usually
its malfunction that captures my attention. Perhaps that is because of
the absolute perfection it was created in that deviation from that
perfection is strange and needs to be questioned. Perhaps I am cynical
and need to examine malfunction. Or maybe I am just curious about things
that are unfamiliar to me- like blisters on my throat?
That was Wednesday’s thoughts this is Thursday’s-
Today I am amazed at how much effect one very small part of your body
can have on your entire being. My throat is only a few square inches of
my body- as far as I can tell- and yet because of it’s infection my
entire being is in extreme discomfort. I don’t want to eat, I am
dehydrated because it hurts to drink. I don’t want to get out of my bed,
I am exhausted, I want a throat transplant. I have decided that is the
best option- just get rid of this one and start fresh.
something just get a new one. Just do something different if you are
discontent. However good it may be that we have the ability to do these
sorts of things and the resources available to provide fresh starts when
necessary- I do not think we always use these resources and abilities
in the wisest of ways. I believe my generation has a lot to learn about
commitment and sticking with things that get messed up and are gross
instead of just always looking for a fresh start, or always looking to
do something newer, easier, better.
