God had laid on my heart months ago that I was going to share my testimony, but I never felt an urgency and continued to put it off. How sweet God’s freedom is though!!
While in Romania one of my squad leaders spoke over me that there was something in my past that I was going to have to work through again. Something that I thought was already done. A strange word to me since I really did think I had dealt with all of the stuff in my past.
A few days before leaving Greystones I was sitting on the roof hanging out with God and He began to ask if I was really surrendering everything. I was confused and kept asking what was standing between us. Over the course of those few days I continued to try and offer up things in my life…and God continued to tell me that wasn’t it, to just be quiet and listen. I thought He wanted something from me…relationships, dreams, I didn’t know what, but I didn’t think it was my past.
A few nights ago my squad parents spoke over me about what God has planned for me, but that there was something standing in the way. I was thankful for the confirmation about what God had told me, but it was still frustrating to not know what!
So needless to say, when God showed me what it was, I was thrilled!
After posting my testimony I headed to worship. Within the first few minutes I sat down to journal my prayer, God had set me free!! The joy in my heart and freedom I feel can’t be contained. As I sat down I wrote the date…September 1st, 2010. It hit me like a wave…it was 7 years to the date since I attempted suicide. I just started laughing and couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. God saved me and freed me exactly 7 years later…I spent the entire worship session laughing as God spoke into me that the joy and laughter, the freedom I feel is Him IN me. I have finally surrendered all and only now can I fully experience Him. I knew that the number 7 has great significance in the Bible, but I didn’t quite know the extent of it…
So on the way back to our campsite I was sharing this with an awesome squadmate. I asked him what the significance of the number 7 is and here is… in the Bible the number 7 represents completion. As he began telling me more about the Biblical backing I couldn’t help but just giggle at how God’s timing is perfect. It’s no coincidence that exactly 7 years after I called on Him to save me, He freed me and completed that work in me. As my squadmate put it, that’s God reminding me how much He loves me. It is complete, I am free, and my God loves me enough that He fulfilled the words spoken over me and the promise that He made.
7 years ago, God knew He had bigger plans, He knew that in His perfect timing I would be set free and completion would come to pass…
Just a heads up, teams have changed!! We got our new teams this morning and I’ll be sharing in the next day or so a little more about the amazing family I’ll be going to Kenya with!
