Right now God just has me excited. It’s hard to explain what’s inside my heart because feeling God’s presence is so powerfully amazing that there are no words to fully comprehend.
Last week I had a few days where I just felt off. I wasn’t sure why and I was still in an ok mood, but I just wanted to get off by myself more than normal. After a lot of prayer and some challenging conversations, it was time for worship with all three of our teams that are working together this month. I was leading this with a few others and by the time it was supposed to start I was already a little bit of an emotional mess. I was annoyed and frustrated. I wanted to fix things, but didn’t know how or what that would look like.
Then we began worship and it was just me and God again… I love singing, I love worship, and I know that that’s one of the main places I connect with God. Within a few minutes of worship God began speaking straight to my heart…
I gave up my life for Him, I agreed to give up everything He asked of me to serve Him this year. It’s not supposed to be easy, it’s supposed to be to further His kingdom. I gave up my rights to be completely independent, to take offence, to hold frustrations against another, I gave up my rights to feel entitled. I agreed to give up anything that would hinder me doing God’s will…and God overwhelmed me with these reminders during worship. He laid peace on my heart. He reminded me that each person here has come for Him. We’re here to love one another, build each other up, and further His kingdom. It’s easy to let Satan sneak in and make me think that I’m entitled to certain things, but I’m not!
God reminded me of what an honor it is to be here. How many times I forget to thank Him for where He’s brought me (spiritually and physically)…I mean, really, I’m in the middle of Romania, living in community with people I love, encouraging and challenging each other, and serving in God’s name. I couldn’t ask for a better life, and yet sometimes I forget.
So this brings me back to the excitement. Every morning (or at least almost every morning) I spend time alone with God before starting the day. I spend some time just reading His word and talking (or listening) to Him. I long to know Him more and I love spending this time in His presence. Aside from that, He has also given me an amazing team that I feel like is just starting to flourish. It’s exciting to see relationships going deeper and our team becoming more powerful for God!
Casey and I thrilled to be on our bus home late one night!
