Abandonment
What does this look like? What does this mean?
Something that God has continued to press upon my heart lately is this idea of abandonment. When He first said this, I was a little confused. I left America, I left convenience, I’m on the world race for crying out loud(!!) all of my life is in a backpack…what more am I supposed to abandon? Oh, be careful what you ask…there’s more to abandon. Throughout the race I have had a mattress almost every place I’ve been, sometimes I’ve been sharing it with one or two others, but a mattress none the less. Thus far on the race I’ve usually had internet readily available, electricity, running water, and I’ve always been safe in my home. I may not have the nicest of things, but I’ve had more than I’ve needed!
So, God persisted with abandon…there’s more to abandon. I expressed to some of my teammates that I’m currently in this place of abandonment and I’m not quite sure what it means or how far God is asking me to take it. It’s new, it’s uncomfortable, and it’s exactly what I need.
I need to be uncomfortable, I need to be reminded that God is all that I really need!
So, I went through my stuff and continued to pray about what all God is asking me to give up….the answer I received was along the lines of….everything that you can do without. Sweet, thanks God, I’ll give up everything I don’t really need….that’s most of my stuff!
I decided to use a little discernment and my teammate to figure out what exactly I should be getting rid of and after going through all of my stuff my sleeping pad is no longer is use (it may or may not be continuing on the race), my clothing options have been cut in half, most of the random things that came with me are gone…all in all, my bag should be much lighter!
But on a serious note, this is about choosing to be uncomfortable…choosing to be without, so that I can continue to grow in my relationship with God. I want to continue to know Him more than I can fathom, I want Him to be able to have His way with me and nothing standing between that.
Most of the race so far I’ve taken the approach that I’m open to God doing whatever He wants in me, but I haven’t been pursuing that. So this is me, trying to be obedient and get to know my Father more…call me crazy, but I’m excited!
Support Update: I’ve had $50 come in over the past few days, I still need to have $1,850 in my support account by October 31st to stay on the race!!!
Total: I still need $5,150 for me to be fully funded!
Feel free to contact me if you have any questions or you can follow the Support Me link on the left of my blog for information on how to financially support me on the race!
