Emotional confusion
I find myself in
a place doing what I love and experiencing dreams, but somehow in the midst of
all the beauty I find myself so emotionally confused. It’s funny how Satan
throws a fit and tries to mess with your life when you give it completely to
Christ. I am learning more than ever in this time of confusion to trust in Him.
The days are filled with mom
ents that make me laugh to moments that make me
weep and wonder what I am doing so far away from those I love, but in every
moment I am learning to lean on Him.
We
have been able to experience so many things already while being out on the
field but with that comes a time of emotional confusion. Learning to praise God
in the storm has been a challenge. Satan has thrown the biggest fit since I
left the states and thinks he can get away with it. He has tried to stomp every
good thing and turn it into frustration. Fortunately God continues to show me
that Satan has no hold over us. Even though I don’t know whether to smile,
laugh, cry, weep, or scream, God is continuing to remind me that in the midst
of all this emotional confusion He is the greatest comforter of all. God is the healer of all. He heals the broken
hearted, He heals the sick, and He heals the emotionally weak. He heals! So in these times of confusion, I
will lean on Him and begin to rest knowing that it’s ok to not be ok. It’s ok
to hurt.
As
I walk through this time of confusion please pray. Pray that God will begin to
heal my heart. Pray that He will bring peace and comfort to my family and I
through this time. Rebuke the hold that Satan thinks He has over me. Pray that
my Granny will be at peace and healing will take place. Pray for my teammates
as sickness and exhaustion sets in. Pray that God will continue to spread His
love to the people of Camotan, Guatemala. Pray that they will begin to fear God
more than they do man. Continue to Pray!
