The last 10 days have been the most intense days of my life. For those of you that didn’t know I was gone or don’t know what I’ve been doing, on Friday May 22 I left for Atlanta Airport to meet up with my teammates to head to Gainesville GA for training camp. Let me just tell you that God wrecked my world and all that I knew of Him. I’m a changed woman and SO looking forward to what He has in store for me for the next year.
So…I’m currently sitting in the Airport waiting to board my plane to go home and most likely I won’t get this finished before it’s time to board, but I just left my family, ok so not my blood family but what I will know as my family for the next year and it was NO fun. These people mean the world to me. I can’t believe that in just a matter of 10 days you can become so close to people.
OK I know you’re probably sitting there wondering what happened during training camp. I’ll start by saying that the first couple days we focused on our hearts. Walls were broken down and lots of tears were shed. I let God into the deepest darkest places of my heart; places that I didn’t even know existed. I’ve had to face the reality of my past relationships and how they have made me look at guys/men. I’ve learned that I have a hard time trusting guys, but the Lord has placed 25 strong men of God in my life and I’m SO thankful for each of them. I’ve learned that I’ve lived a fake Christian life, that I’ve sucked at being a Christian and how that has lead me to not let others help me deal with and get through each and every trial. I now have almost 90 people who are willing to help me deal with anything that gets in the way of living the life God intended me to live.
I’ve learned how to grieve things from my past. I had to cut soul ties from friends and family that have kept me from being the woman God intended me to be. It was freeing and I think it’s made my love these people even more. Even though the ones I cut ties from may not have done anything necessarily on purpose it has caused pain, rejection, and hurt that I didn’t know exist. Some of it comes from many generations past.
I’m so thankful for the past 10 days and I’m so excited about what the Lord has in store for me.
