So I’ve known change
was coming, and most people know how much I hate change, but God had given me a
peace about accepting this change because I needed it if I was going to
continue growing. We got multiple
changes today. First our squad leaders
were raised up this morning and I’m glad that they are our leaders. Congrats Mike, Denise, and Tamica. Next team leaders were announced, 3 old
leaders remained and 3 new leaders were raised up. Then teams were announced. The whole time I was expecting my name to be
called, but change did not happen. Beautiful Feet is the only team that is still together. I’m sitting here trying to figure out
why. God had spoken to me so much this
month about how change was coming for me and that I needed it to continue
growing and I’m still on the same team. So where does that leave me, I’m confused, frustrated and really upset. I love my team members and while I’m glad I
didn’t have to experience change, I’m more upset that change didn’t
happen. It’s hard to know that God was
telling me I needed change if I was going to grow anymore and then to be on the
same team is really hard. I experienced
more growth this month being with different people then the two months I was
with Beautiful Feet. I know Brian,
Stacy, and Catlin seek God in prayer on every decision, so why would God tell
me one thing but not tell them the same. Am I not really hearing God? I
don’t know, and I’m at a lose for words because I’m so confused. But Beautiful Feet is still together and
after our 4 hours of silence I guess we’ll find out how everyone is doing.
So after our 4 hours
of silence I was still pretty angry with God, so I went to Brian, Stacy, and
Catlin to talk to them to figure things out. I wanted to understand why I would have to prepare for change and then not
experience it. Stacy brought to light
that I could have heard that change was going to have to happen for more
growth, but it didn’t mean change of people, just change of team dynamics. Brian also explained that God was probably
testing my obedience like he tested Abraham. Was I willing to be obedient to God? Because I decided that I was going to be ok with change, God decided he
wasn’t going to wreck my world and take away my team. God was ok with me being angry at Him because
he knew that I would accept His love by not taking away my team. I was challenged by Brian, Stacy, and Catlin
to tell my team all I had learned and encourage them into a new team name. Sharing what happened with my team was good for
me! As a team we decided that we
definitely needed a team name change because we did not want to associate with
the old but with the new!
So with further ado I introduce you to Mosaic…a bunch a broken people but when put together are
beautiful!
