It has been a little over 2 months since we have returned from the World Race. Since Thanksgiving I have been searching for a job. I have applied for everything from ministry positions to temporary retail jobs. I can officially announce now that………(drumroll please…..)
I'm. Still. Jobless.
I can't even count the number of jobs I have applied for. I honestly don't understand. When looking at my resume you see that I have had experience in a few different fields. This apparently has done absolutely nothing to help me out right now. Many days it has gotten to the point where I have lost hope in getting a job. Can I tell you my honest reasons behind wanting a job right now? Well, I am no matter what your answer so if you don't want to know, why are you reading my blog anyways???
Reason numero uno (#1): I have been invited to go on two mission trips that I would love to participate in. I was hoping to have a job so I would just be able to pay for these without raising support again.
Reason numero dos (#2): After not having a paying job for over a year now, it would be nice to be able to make money to put gas in my car or eat an occasional meal out or catch up on movies I missed this year and see new ones. You know, it's the little things in life…..haha
Last week I got really discouraged when I was denied even just for an interview for a good position. I was talking to a friend from C Squad and she started reminding me of all that we had seen God do this last year and how He is still working whether we see it right in front of us or not.
All of a sudden, God smacked me in the back of my head and reminded me of one little phrase:
"You of little faith!"
I realized the truth of those four little words. I am reminded of ways I saw God move in my life and many others. His grace was so tangible and His love on display. God provided in such amazing ways for me to even be able to go on this trip. He provided financial donors, people who donated gear, and people to pray for me constantly. Taking this step seemed like such a giant leap of faith.
So where is that faith now? I haven't been living with that same faith. I have a feeling I'm not alone in that boat though. It doesn't matter if you have been on the World Race or not. Many of you reading this have still seen God work and provide in amazing ways. Yet now we worry and stress over things that God has had planned for us for decades.
25 “For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29 yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31 Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ 32 For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34 “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:25-34
So I give up……No more worry. No more stress. Only trust and faith in God. He has amazing plans for each of us. When you start to doubt that, just look back at how He has provided. I challenge you to even write those things down. When you physically see it written it makes a powerful difference. Continue seeking Him first over plans and details.
A little late, but here is the final video I made from my World Race journey. Enjoy and share!
