It started out as a missed devotional one day, and three months later had me asking “God, why do you feel so far away?”
Life is full of mountain tops, but life is also full of valleys in between. The last three months, I have felt low and alone in a valley. I was busy with school and cheer, and would push my devotionals to the side. I felt like my strong Christ-like community was fading, due to the fact I was simply so busy. I was tired and burnt out and I felt really lonely. I was struggling.
In this struggle, I was believing lies that my head had me fooled into thinking were true. LIES that said I wasn’t worthy of God’s love. LIES that said He was far away. LIES that said God loved me less because I was struggling in this season of my life. They. were. lies.
Recently, I woke up one morning and thought, “What is happening? Why do I feel like this? God, why do you feel so far away?” I reached out to a friend, simply asking for a prayer request, and was blown away by the Truth she gave me.
Even if I don’t feel close to God, He is closer than my very breath. There is absolutely nothing I can do to separate myself from His love. God loves me exactly the same in a valley as He does on a mountain top.
Psalm 136:26 “Give thanks to the God of heaven, for His steadfast love endures forever.“
That is TRUTH that I will rest in, and I pray that you can find rest in it as well.
– haven
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Below is a song I listened to over and over while writing this. If you have time, just take a quick listen! I hope you love it as much as I do!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=247&v=p4rRCjrAyCs
This blog is a place for me to update you on this journey- my physical journey and my spiritual one. The journeys aren’t always easy, and sometimes its hard to be honest about everything going on. But everyone walks through valleys, and its completely okay be open and honest about it. I really just wanted to share this part of my journey with everyone, because its been so important to me. God is preparing me to leave and do His work, and this is part of it. If you have any questions about my trip, my spiritual journey, or simply just want to talk and hang out, please please ask. Thank you forever for all the prayers and support! so much love. I can feel it all.
