This week I went with my small group to see “The Son of God.” It was fine, over all, but I’m not a huge fan of Biblical movies. I simply think that people don’t really know how to act when they’re trying to act like Jesus. However, this is not a movie critique. The point is that during this film, I watched the man portraying my Savior willingly crawl onto a cross and die the lowest death any person could ever imagine. I watched as he cried out, “MY GOD, WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?” and took on the sins of every person that ever was and ever will be born. And I couldn’t even cry.
All I could do in that moment was think, “I’m not worth this.” I’m not worth the pain that He endured. I’m not worth the blood that pooled at His feet. I’m not worth the loneliness that He felt. I’m not worth His mother’s broken heart.
I went to bed feeling this way. I woke up the next morning feeling this way. But in the car I had some time with Jesus. I told Him how I felt, and I told Him I was sorry that He had to hang there for me to live a life that has not been worthy of His death.
In that moment the Lord stopped me. I continued my drive to work and as I drove I heard Him say, “You were worth it. You are worth it. You will forever be worth it. You are worth every step I took up the hill to Calvary. You are worth every sliver of wood it took to make my cross. You are worth every drop of blood that poured from my veins. You are worth the final breath from my lungs. You are enough.”
Be blessed today, y’all!
Love,
-H
“It was my sin that held him there, until it was accomplished. His dying breath has brought me life, ‘I know that is is finished.'”-How Deep the Father’s Love For Us
