In the midst of my sickness God, your goodness is made known
In the midst of my weakness, I clearly feel your strength
As I sit on the floor lowly and pleading for mercy
You hear my cry and you DELIGHT in showing me mercy
You know my silly fears, yet you spare me from facing them in this moment
You are GOOD is all I hear
As I sleep on the hard floor and my body aches
You bring thankfulness to mind, you turn my thoughts to praise
Each moment of sleep leads to another thank you
You saturate my mind with thoughts proclaiming your goodness
YOU are good is all I hear
In my isolation I feel you near,
You give me contentment with your sweet presence
In my desperation you never left me
In my pleading you never turned your ear away
In my lowliness you moved in closer
Again, You ARE good is all I hear
I praise you because you continually remind me of your goodness
I praise you because you have made my natural response thankfulness
I praise you because your goodness is so real that I cannot help but acknowledge it.
My lips cannot say anything but YOU ARE GOOD.
The only thoughts in my mind are you are good, over and over again
Your goodness is new to me again right here, right now
This song of thanks is in response to a recent sickness I experienced. A few things that really stood out to me in the midst of this sickness were:
-During the sickness I constantly heard the words “you are good, you are good” from a song I knew called “King of my heart.” I never had a negative thought, a thought of frustration, a thought of anger or discontent. My only thoughts were you are good, you are good over and over again. In this I knew it was the Lord’s doing. I knew he was with me and was filling my head with these thoughts because on my own I am not likely to choose praise in the midst of hurt, discomfort, weakness, etc. I am sinful and not quick to sing praises in the midst of sickness.
-This may sound silly but one of my fears is throwing up. I have always been bothered by it and don’t even like talking about it to be honest. As I sat on the floor in the midst of my sickness I asked God for mercy. To let this sickness pass from me, to spare me. In my pleading he showed me mercy. Later that night I was reminded of a song that talks about how God delights in showing mercy. Even something as small as this was significant to me. The fact that the all-powerful, all-knowing God delights in giving me mercy blew my mind. The fact that he wants to extend mercy towards me when I plead to him for it pointed me right back to his goodness again. Wow, he is good.
-I also found that as soon as I started to get better I wasn’t as thankful, I didn’t think of God as often. As soon as I felt less needy I forgot God. I found that when I forget my need I lose perspective, I lose thankfulness, I lose nearness, I lose lowliness etc. In all of this, I learned that in order to get close I need to get low. If I want intimacy I need to be willing to recognize my need as well as my place before the almighty God and get low. If I am desperate enough to be near to God I won’t let having to humble myself stop me.
