As I continue to raise support, my mind rushes ahead to what my team and I will be doing for the first eleven months of 2010.
A lot of it is unknown to me currently. Which, to be honest, is both exciting and disconcerting to me. The planner in me wants–no, no desires–to know EXACTLY what we will be doing and all the correspondent details. But on the flip side, the spontaneous free spirit in me relishes the thought that I have NO IDEA what I will be doing in less than 5 months from now.
Which brings me to the topic of this post: looking ahead. While I am looking ahead with trepidation and excitement, I am also looking ahead to how I will be different, stretched, and altered by 11 months of serving and loving complete strangers. I know that God will do marvelous things in and through my and my team’s efforts for His kingdom, His glory. I also know that I will be broken again and again in the the approximately 334 days away from the States.
But specifically…?
I DON’T KNOW.
AND I AM OKAY WITH THIS.
MORE THAN OKAY.
Honored.
On the one hand, I cannot wait to depart from the States to live and serve as a missionary abroad; but on the other, I know that I am to not waste my time, skills, and passions while I live, work, volunteer, serve, love, and learn here in Nashville. I am honored to be a part of so much now and I am honored to soon be a part of something so much bigger and immensely ‘beyond’ myself in but a few short months.
