It has been a long time coming. My restlessness is nearly ever-present, but in the past, I have found myself in a spiritual stagnant stupor. While I am not in this place at the present time, I have found myself spiritually “settling” for the weekly sermons I hear, podcasts I listen to, seminary courses I pursue, texts I read, small groups I attend, and conversations I engage myself in-but with little or no application in my life. While I have been thinking about this on an off throughout the months of September and October, it was not until this past Thursday, when my friend Phil and I took a hike at Radnor Lake and he brought it up.
I have become “far too easily pleased” when it comes to my spiritual life. It is one thing to listen and engage in one’s faith and quite the other to apply the lessons of patience and peace (from my homegroup), perseverance (from TVC), diligence and discipline (from some Mark Driscoll podcasts), trust (from Brennan Manning’s book, “Ruthless Trust”), and discipleship (from a podcast from Covenant Seminary in St. Louis). I keep seeking after knowledge and truth-but if I am to be fully honest, it is more apt to become ‘head knowledge’ and not ‘heart knowledge’ on a day-to-day basis. It is not as though I have become a rebellious our “bad” person by any means, but I have most definitely lost my focus on God and have come to a place where I have settled for less than what is holy, perfect, and pleasing to Him.
