When we first got to Ethiopia I was excited to write daily entries every day in my computer so that I could look back at them later on to remember things. I did that for everyday in Guatemala and was planning to do that the whole race. However, after a few weeks of being in Ethiopia and successfully charging my computer so I can keep using it everyday, it just stopped charging. My computer tells me that the adapter isn’t right and it won’t charge. I thought this was the weirdest thing honestly because I had made it a while here charging it with the same adapter and it worked. I was very confused and frustrated.
What I failed to just explain is that, I was in my room constantly, doing something on my computer to, in a way, escape things outside of my room. It had kind of become my idol. When I really thought about it, I realized that I had began to put writing about my day in my laptop and watching movies on it before even my time with Jesus and my time with others on my squad.
One morning I was just cutting grass with my team for ministry and had an overwhelming peace of why my computer won’t charge. With the knowledge of being on it a lot more than usual recently, God told me that He needed to take away my computer charging abilities so that I would connect with Him and my squad mates. Also so that it wouldn’t remain an idol. It makes a lot of sense because of how it charged when I first got here and now it won’t.
I have no idea when God will let me charge and use it again but I have peace about it. I know that He will let me charge it again. Whether that’s in Ethiopia or not, I don’t know. This is the ultimate example that God is in control and has a say in what I do!
I am going to be honest though, it is super hard to not have use of my computer here because I’ve got movies on it and a hard drive with movies on it. The hard drive only works for PCs and not Macs and most of my squad has Macs…
At the same time, the way I see the whole, not being able to write daily entries, is that my time here in Ethiopia is sacred and good. Without the distraction of my computer I’m able to spend more time with God and my squad. I’m able to work through the struggles I’m having with myself (see “Free from What?” Blog). Yes it’s frustrating and unfair to not be able to use my computer when others have theirs but God has my best intentions at heart and isn’t concerned with fairness.
