It’s been a few days now since I arrived to Guatemala, the place I will be spending the first 3 months of my new missionary life.
I just want to talk about how unprepared and emotionally and physically overwhelmed I first was within the first day and a half. However, although I was kind of prepared for my goodbyes to my family,
those goodbyes hit me like a bomb. I had no idea my heart could hurt as much as it did to say bye to people for 9 months, especially when those people mean so much to me and have meant the world to me my whole life,
whether I ever admitted that before, it’s big facts and always has been!!
Real quick shout out to my family! I love and miss y’all so much already and I know it’s hard to adjust to life without me, but y’all are going to
grow from that just as much as or more than I am going to grow from this amazing trip!
So, I’m going to kind of give you guys a rundown on my emotions kind of from when I arrived to Guatemala. When my plane landed in Guatemala City, Guatemala, I was excited! I had a window seat flying in so I got a good view of the place
as we came in and it was awesome! I got off the plane and I was excited and nervous. I was actually excited up until it came time to unpack and make things comfortable and home like, since, after all, I’ll be spending 3 months here!
So we debunked some of the beds in our room because not all of us wanted the top bunk, making a mess of everything in the room at the time. Getting stressed with that, so when everyone in my room with me(which is 6 other people) started
to unpack and organize, I just stood there and stared at my stuff because I was so stressed and overwhelmed that I physically could not unpack and be productive. I ended up dumping all my stuff on my bed and staring at it. I got so
frustrated that I gave up, laid down on top of my stuff and played games on my phone, trying to relieve my stress.
It took about a day for me to be motivated to actually unpack and get settled. So as of now, I’m unpacked and much less overwhelmed with things. That was the physical part. I was also emotionally overwhelmed at the
same time which was soooo greattttt!(NOT) Everyone on my squad was running around and being super social really quick, which made it hard on me because I’m pretty shy at first. All I knew is that I didn’t feel like
I really found my social groove type thing yet.
I was at, I guess what you would call, a low point in life at that time. So naturally, I start to rethink my decisions. “9 months? What am I doing? Why? I don’t even want to be here!” I really struggled. But I know that I know
that me being here with this group of people is what God has called me to do. I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life! Which says a lot because, ask my family or friends, I am an incredibly indecisive person! However, this situation
is different because I’m being obedient to God, so it was more like His decision for me!
So, like how time usually always helps situations, it helped me! Only partly though because, of course, my strength comes from the Lord! Hallelujah! With it only being within the first week of being here, I know for a fact that there
will be more hard days like that one or maybe even worse. So, if you’re looking for a way to pray for me these 9 months, praying for the Lord’s strength to be with me as I go through the hard days would be great! But also, one of the
best ways to enjoy the good days is having the bad ones!
Thanks everyone for all the support! I really appreciate you all so much!
Dios te bendiga!(God bless you!)
