I have a confession to make…
I am actually pretty terrified to experience some things because of stories that I have heard or because of all the sicknesses in the world that I will be exposed to over the course of the next 9 months of my life.
So last Thursday, August 22, 2019, I went and got 5 different shots to keep me safe from some scary sicknesses in the world. However, before I got the shots, the nurse I met with gave me so much, overwhelming information about the different sicknesses I will be exposed to on my trip. She gave me good but terrifying information.
After processing all the information on the sicknesses in the world I will be exposed to, I began to struggle with a fear of the world and it’s sicknesses. I was swamped in this overwhelming, not of God, fear. I began to think, “What am I doing? Why the heck am I going away for 9 months to these places where I could get super sick or die??” (I am not a person that really fears death) Almost immediately after I had that thought I realized that that thought was not of God. So I declared to myself that if God is calling me to the mission field, then He is NOT going to leave me high and dry and be like, “Well, good luck, tell me how it goes for you!” He’s going to stay right there with me, every single step of the way and there is nothing that will ever change that in my life. So for me, when I think of that thought I had now, I get so mad at the devil for thinking he had the right to plant that thought in my head and make me rethink my decision of obedience to God to go on this trip.
When I really think about it, experiencing sickness or being in parts of the world that has sicknesses, it’s eye opening and it’s part of experiencing life. You hear these quotes about how people should live, not only survive. So this trip is allowing me to truly live, and when I think about that, it makes me really grateful for this amazing opportunity God has given me.
So, am I terrified of experiencing some things on this trip I’m going on?
No! I declare in the name of Jesus that this experience will really show me how to live my life and not just survive.
