About a little over a week ago, I made a declaration of surrender to God. This looked like getting dunked in a little bathtub in the middle of the field at our base. Full surrender seems terrifying, but I know that it is the best decision of my life. Not my commitment to theatre, to one world club, or to the world race. It’s not about what I do anymore, it’s only about God. It’s only about my life being a vessel for His glory in every single aspect of my life. Even the ugly parts that I tried to hide from God.
Anabelle asked me what stayed in the water, and this is what has no control in my life anymore:
– hiding from God
– shame for my past actions
– comparison to others
– condemnation (which is not from God, by the way)
– fear of the future
– doctrine over relationship with God
– the easy route (aka choosing transformation instead of going through the motions of being a christian)
-other’s expectations of me over God’s expectations of me
-doubt of God’s faithfulness
Everything that stayed in the water was never on my table anyway. The beautiful thing is that God has already done this work in me, but the dunking was just a physical representation of God’s ever-present grace in my life.
One of my fears upon getting baptized was that the church I have always known doesn’t necessarily believe in getting baptized after getting dedicated as a baby. Despite feeling like I needed to get baptized, I thought to myself “Why would I get baptized? Been there, done that.” And God basically said “Why would you NOT get baptized? What’s holding you back?” DANG !!!
So I got baptized.
Getting baptized doesn’t mean I am throwing away my foundation. I am so grateful for that foundation God provided me with. I am truly who I am because of what I went through at church. But man, God is way bigger than the view of Him I grew up with.
I am learning so much about my Father. I wanted to get baptized again to mark my full surrender and commitment to God and to declare I AM ALL IN.
Peace and blessings,
Hannah Keller
