I’ve sat down and started this blog about five times. The words just aren’t coming. So I’m going to try and do this thing where I just say what’s in my head without trying to make it sound eloquent or meaningful.
I’m sitting here on my bed, listening to Out Of Hiding by Steffany Gretzinger. (Shoutout to the beautiful Shania M. for introducing me to this amazing music!) It’s hard for me to believe that this is one of the last times I’ll sit (or sleep) on my bed for nine months. I have no idea where I’m going to be laying down at night for the better part of a year. My mom isn’t gonna be there anytime I need to talk something out, or just need a hug. My dad isn’t gonna be there if I need someone to back me up in a tough decision. My siblings aren’t going to be there to annoy me…and thats both a positive and a negative. 😉 There’s so much excitement in the going, but so much pain in the leaving.
There has been so many goodbyes in the last 10 days. I’m not even sure how to process it all.
I love the people I’m traveling with. They are amazing people who are overflowing with the Spirit. They’re my family! They’re going to support me and challenge me, push me to be the women God is shaping me to be. It’s going to be so good. I can’t wait to travel all over the world with them.
I already love the countries we are going to. I love the adventures we are going to have. I love the people we are going to meet. I love the stepping out into the unknown. I love packing my life into two backpacks. I love knowing that this is just the beginning.
There isn’t any doubt in my mind that this is exactly where I’m meant to be. There has been time and time again where things have occurred that only the Lord could accomplish. I’m fully convinced that he will continue the work he has started.
I’m so overwhelmed with the honor and trust placed on me. Me? Be Jesus to the nations? Are you sure? Because I’m pretty sure you couldn’t find someone less qualified than me. But time
and time again God as worked through the least likely option. (i.e. Moses, Noah, Esther, Rahab, Ruth, even/especially Mary.)
This just barley brushes on the surface of all the seventeen (or seventy-one) emotions I’m feeling right now. I just want to give you a glimpse of my heart. I’m so excited and blessed to be going on this adventure, and I couldn’t be doing it without the support of each and every one of you.
I head to launch in Atlanta early on Wednesday morning, and we have training there until we fly out on the 11th. I’ll talk to you all soon…probably from Costa Rica!!
