Vision

Spent some time today reflecting on all the things the Lord has spoken to me over the past year, and re centering myself around the truth of how He sees and speaks to me – His beloved daughter.

 

In the midst of all the transition of the last few months (finishing my Unscripted 11n11 World Race, time at home in NZ, coming back to the USA and prepping to lead, flying back to Colombia and beginning this six month journey) I realised that I just merged into the ministry structure of this trip. Hear me out – this style of ministry (waking up with assigned service tasks in an established organisation) is beautiful and needed in its own right. The Lord has spoken to me in all the small Kingdom realities of service – eg hours spent sorting rotten donated potatoes, while yielding to His sorting & redeeming of my interior. But I noticed myself switching ‘ministry’ off when we finished a task. This grated against the truth I see in Jesus’ lifestyle and how we lived last year – living expectant, truly interruptible, and ready for spiritual conversations and encounters with all God’s children.

 

So, rejoicing in where the Lord has led me in the past, and where He so clearly called me in the present – I have intentionally taken steps to integrate the two. This has looked like starting my mornings with some quiet time in which I lay the tasks and plans of a day before the Lord and invite Him into them, often asking, “Who is on your heart, Father?”. And then as I go about the day, seeing the people around me with His eyes – leading to some rad conversations with taxi drivers, new friends at coffee shops, having both encouraging and hard conversations with my teammates etc. Also just simply doing a task to excellence, knowing the work of my hands is for the King of Kings.

 

How sweet to serve a God who reveals Himself differently in different seasons and to different people! The God of sorting rotten potatoes. The God of Saturday afternoon kid’s ministry. The God of conversations in broken Spanish with a homeless woman. The God of New Zealand. The God of Colombia. The God of my interior & exterior life and all the space (or lack thereof) in between. The God of ‘wholiness’ & integration. 

 

That being said, I was still feeling a little lost in daily life. When meeting with a friend I made in Medellin last year, she asked why I came back when home life is so sweet. Without a doubt I replied “Jesus” and explained the calling I received to lead this trip in August last year and the clarity of that decision. While this calling is powerful and sustaining, I had lost sight of its daily implication in this new season.

 

So, sitting down and going over all the truths He revealed over the last seasons – I re wrote the above vision statement for myself. 

 

While I am at home with the Lord wherever He has me, I am still rooted in the land and people that birthed me. That home is beautiful, good and is a community that knows me intricately. A community that shaped and sent me to be fully present & planted in all the ‘heres’ the Lord takes me.

 

 

Speaks to intimacy with the Lord, being with Him as beloved daughter with no agenda, equipping in the secret place, merging with the Lord, stillness and rest, joy and enjoying, and modelling an invitational life of intimacy to call others into. 

 

 

 

Speaks to vessel life (see the life of the prophets, namely Jeremiah, the vessels in the Tabernacle, and pictures of overflow – eg Psalm 1’s trees). I listen to what the Lord is saying, receive His heart and His word, sit with Him in truth, and know His voice. I also listen to the people He has entrusted me to lead & disciple (this squad), empathise deeply, affirm and help them come to understanding of what He is speaking to them. I receive vision, hope, and co-create dreams with the Lord for myself and for the teams I lead from this space. Intercession also falls under listening, as a way to receive God’s words for others and fight for them with truth He speaks.

 

 

 

The natural flow from listening. More vessel life, leadership, and discipleship. I am poured into to overflow. I speak life and encouragement, I speak hard truths in love where others do not, and I teach and preach revelations He gives me. I articulate realities, I cast vision, and communicate needed next steps. My spiritual gift of apostleship comes alive in this space. Intercession falls here too, speaking truth to spiritual realms in battle for others. 

 

 

 

That is a snippet of me! A beloved, called daughter of the Lord – walking in leadership and life as a vessel of His words. There is so much more I could say, and so many more joys & wrestlings within me. But in the spirit of SPEAKING, I am publishing this blog to simply get it out there and invite you all into where the Lord has me. Thank you for partnering with and encouraging me in so many ways.

 

Yours,

Han