Why I don’t blog…
I am not a travel blogger. I am not a selfie-taker or even a media-lover. I don’t read blogs! I am in the moment, with anyone, anytime, any place. And I LOVE people. That being said, I’d like to ask your pardon for not posting more often, and include you on some inner-healing I’ve been undergoing.
Innerhealing. We all go through life collecting pain and heartache. We try to move on, some methods healthier than others.
I grew up in a family that loves me a lot. I wish I could say it was “normal”, but as I’ve gone around the world I realize that it just wasn’t. It was extraordinary. But was it perfect? No.
Wounds. We all have them. “Hurting people hurt (other) people.”
Two of my life goals were to be 1. Someone who inflicts as little pain on those around her as possible 2. Someone who experiences as little pain as possible.
However, pain isn’t necessarily a bad thing. When we’re hurting, we want to escape. We don’t always look the issue in the eye and ask “why am I feeling this hurt?”
Blogging. I experience pain every time I try and write a blog. Haha it sounds dramatic, but it’s not. My pain is valid. I used to have an English tutor who would hurt me with her words. I looked to her for affirmation and for validation. I developed anxiety around writing. “I am not good enough. I have nothing important to say. No one wants to hear my voice.”
But my Father (the One in Heaven) says I am worthy of love. I am enough. I am unique and have my own sense of style, even when it comes to writing.
We all have pains that are markers of something askew. Proverbial shoulders out of joint. Are we willing to invite the Great Physician into those places to set things right? I am.
We can do this!
Thank you for reading!!! I would love to hear any areas of anxiety you have been dealing with. Send me a message on Instagram! @hannaswords
Please continue to pray for my team as we journey to Georgia It’s going to be an adventure!!
This photo: I sent to my parents on the latest travel day. Let’s just say they appreciate the updates (especially the ones with photographic evidence of my health.)
