Well around 3 weeks ago I resigned form my job. It is probably one of the hardest thing I have done and one of the most painful. I loved my job at Calvary Baptist Church—Greenville and it was my dream job. I am still in awe as I think back to how God open the door for me to work their and how blessed I am to have this church as part of my story and life. This decision was not easy and has had many tears and many emotions. But God is good even when I can not see or understand. The church went through an expansion and about doubled in size. It took a toll on me. I became married to the church. Everything revolved around my work and I had cut everything out of life, friends and service and so forth to be able to do my job. This is unhealthy and when I started looking into pursing a dream of mine it just was not going to work with having this schedule and was causing me lots of tension inside. Well through meetings and prayer I decided that the churches vision for next step
was not going to be a good fit for me. I resigned and am pursuing were God would lead me next. It has been painful for me only because I poured so much into it…as I said earlier it has been like I was married to the church and so this feels like a divorce. But I have also had peace and as I step back and look at all the things I have put on hold I am excited for what God has next and how He will use me in His plan for my life. So what is the next step? Honestly, some-thing I never thought about or had consider until about 2 weeks ago when it was brought up in conversation. The interesting thing is if I was still working at the church or even volunteering/serving in other areas I would have said no. Instead I said no at first because of my dog and not wanting to leave my apartment or my friends. Wow!!! That took me back and I have had to do some evaluating of my life and relationship with God. Would I tell God no because I did not want to leave what I do? Would I tell God no because of my friends? Would I tell God no because of my pet? Would I tell God no because of finances? Sadly as I evaluated this I realized the answer was yes. And that was not a place I wanted to be. First I checked into Kaloo’s care for if I went. Well that will be taken care of even though it will be hard to leave him. He will be taken care of and it is not right to have him stop me if this is something God wants from me. The trip starts a few weeks before the lease is up. That is good timing for me with the apartment. So I filled out an application for the World Race. Well I have been excepted and over the 2 week process have had many conversations with God through prayer about this and surrendering my will to His plan. It will be stretching and growing but most importantly no matter how hard this is for me or leaving Kaloo behind. I have lots of peace and feel God leading me and telling me to just trust Him.
