I was so overwhelmed by things this week. I have been juggling it being Christmas, fundraising, family back home, ministry, and my life next month in Bolivia.
I have been struggling with funding mostly. I haven’t been the best at asking for money. Many people have told me that you’re not asking people to give to you but to God. I am thankful for this encouragement. The fact still stands, I am the one asking and the reason people give is between them and God. I feel very out of place being that person.
With this weighing heavy on my heart, I spent some time with God last night. I was in an empty room, but God was there. I laughed and cried with a room full of God. He sang over me just as much as I sang to him.
Fasting has been put on my heart for months. I never really understood fasting. I had questions like: when should you do it? And what good would it do? Those questions were answered for me last night.
For me God explained fasting is a way to be made new again. A new foundation is being made with fasting, because the old will corrupt the new if built on the old. This was Gods asking price for my faith to be grown. He was asking me to give something. I started fasting last night, and am starting my new foundation for the future.
Fasting means and is used differently for everyone, but one common factor remains. It’s a way of faith based trust in God’s provision for our lives.
I believe God has his hand in everything I am doing, including if I get fully funded and who he calls to give to his kingdom through my trip. I have faith in this power to change any situation I face.
I may have been full of physical food in the past, but I was starving my soul. Letting myself go untested. I want to find something more in the unknown. I want to search in the places I’ve never been. I believe this is where the strongest faith is born.
Part 2 of this blog will be what God does with this act of faith. Love you guys merry Christmas!
