My brothers. I think of you guys like whiskey, better with age. Heck by now we should be some dang good whiskey. 😉 I have been lucky enough to have been born into the conway family with 5 boys. Our family, like you know wasn’t/ isn’t perfect, Never was and most definitely never will be. I wouldn’t want it to be. I have watched you from a small child’s perspective, I have laughed with you, I have hurt with you, but most of all I have always loved you. Each of you.
To my brother Andrew:
Thank you. You have devoted so much time to me. Because of our age difference of 17 years I never saw you as a kid, you were an adult by time I could remember. In some ways I think it saved our relationship. While you were growing up, so was I. I know it took time for you to find your center in this crazy world. I know it took time for you to get married and settle down. But Andrew, You were always the brother that I knew I had. The one that was my constant. Life was hard growing up, but I never had to question whether I wanted or could hug you. Even after you had gotten married and had kids you gave me time. While I was struggling with my math from college you would sit down with me and help me understand. You are an amazing older brother. Kind. Devoted. And patient.
To my brother matthew:
Thank you. You have given me purpose. Again I realize now how much of a difference we are in age. That never meant anything. I was always your annoying youngest little sister. I would always come over to your apartment for wii sports and chips that we never had at home. Of course back then I don’t really think we had a relationship. Good thing I never stopped being the annoying little sister who eventuality got a cell phone. You were always the smart one that just understood things in ways no one else could. Getting to know you in the last few years has been truly a blessing for me. Letting me sleep at your place after prom both years in high schoolXD, convincing you to go skydiving with me, and honestly the greatest adventure yet to come is seeing you in Germnay. Matthew you are irreplaceable to me. You have given me a purpose and fulfillment, being the little sister.
To my brother Peter:
Thank you. You have shown me strength .
Oh boy has our relationship story been through some things. For most of my childhood I thought you hated my existence. Anytime I would see you I felt like I was small and insignificant in your eyes. Like a bug needing to be waved away or smashed. I went to anger when I was around you to hide my pain. Not knowing that it wasn’t me you were angry at. Thus It wasn’t my place to take that blame and then try to turn it back to you in anger. I struggled with this way longer than I should have. You know what broke My hard heart towards You? Watching you fall in love with your family. Peter you are a different man. You have a heart of a father, that didn’t come easy. Where we came from, you had to fight for that. You are strong. You are strong so people can depend on you, but you are the strongest because you don’t let fear fuel your anger anymore. I’m so freaking proud of you. I just pray I can find a man you has learned some of the same things as you one day.
To my brother John-mark:
Thank you. You have redeemed my heart. Ok ok we’ve come from some dark places. Not the best of times, not the best of feelings towards each other. Good thing God is never done changing our hearts around. Jm i have told you time and time again how impactful you have been for me. I hope you have heard me. In high school when I was struggling and needed an adult but didnt want one. You were there. If I needed a friend, you are there. You have given me so much. It is priceless to me. You were willing to show me that someone wanted me. The little sister who just wanted to have brothers. You showed me that it was possible. You started it. It not only gave me hope for Our relationship but for all my sibling relationships. Our relationship today would be nothing that it is without you.
To my brother Luke:
Thank you. You have taught me love. Our relationship is like a Phoenix born again out of ashes. We’ve been close our whole lives. It’s never been easy but you always need that one person who is always believing in you. That one person you know will always forgive you after crossing over the line over and over again. We are that for each other. Not letting the other fall behind. Luke you have spent so much time looking at what I have and what you don’t have. Your path just looks different than mine. Focus on yours, you’ll see you’re more equipped for it than you would be for mine and vise versa. You have taught me love in the sense that, love never gives up. You haven’t given up. Ever. I want someone that will fight like you.
I am proud of each and every single one of you. I am learning more about having high standards for my self and for the man I want to marry one day, because of you, my brothers. You are the men in my life that I want to look up to as a little sister. Watching you each become men not just for yourselves but for others has been something I will cherish and remember. I hope I can do you all proud one day in being everything a litte sister can be for her older brothers.
I love my brothers ? thank you for giving me a full life and loving me to the best of your ability over the years.
