I Prayed for Humility

Since I’ve stepped foot on the field back in October, I’ve been routinely praying for humility. God revealed to me this summer that one of the seven deadly sins I struggle with most is pride. In direct regards to Him, I have not always felt I needed Him in my life. I had an ego that felt fully capable of not needing help from another to carry out my life.

News flash Hannah- you DO need help, and A LOT of it…

… and praise God for that.

I didn’t exactly know what it meant to be humble, besides what I heard on the surface level of the topic. ‘Don’t be boastful about your accomplishments, and keep your nose down.’ While those are true statements, the art of humility is SO much more than that.

I’ve learned that being humble means I know and I’m willing to admit that I am incapable of doing anything on my own. I will never preform anything perfect, because I was created purposefully with flaws. And with both of those points, I must fully depend on God for everything. And in times of celebration, I must thank our father, and lift Him up for being the source of the blessing.

This has been the most freeing realization I have ever come to. Because guess what, the pressure is OFF?! I DON’T have to be perfect! I have plagued myself for the last 22 years with the notion that I must strive for constant perfection. I have carried guilt and shame so heavy, and never really knew how to let it go. But by the grace of God, I have dove into submission and am so honored to let Him take the control for my life. I have a trust in His plan and am eager to follow.

While reading the gospels, I have learned so much from Jesus about this topic. He was the most humble AND perfect man to ever walk this planet. He led the pack with strength, dignity and an immense amount of humility. In my journey makers, which are weekly lessons and activities that I fill out and send to my leaders, I expressed how I have the desire to learn how to serve like Jesus. I was hungry for more growth in humility and learning how to lead from the back.

The Lord has heard my cry and I’m so honored to say that He has gifted me with the opportunity to serve as a team leader for my new team. I am praying so much for grace, patience and wisdom from the Lord to carry out this role. I intend on leading from the back and letting the Lord use me as a vessel to guide the incredible women on my team. Our new name is, SONshine! God gave us so many words that resonated with the beams of light in the sky and we are eager to grow in sonship. Please pray over us and myself, because I know that I will fail at times, but through what I’ve gained in humility, I’m totally ok with that!

Here is a picture of SONshine!