We just got back from month one debrief! We had a week set out after the first month to rest and process what the Lord has been doing in our lives. We spent a week at Lake Atitlan, and it was so beautiful to just rest in his creation for a week and have some time to reflect and prepare for the next two months here.
The Lord has been teaching me so much in just a month. I’ve grown so much since I left home just a little over a month ago. One thing He has really been showing me is who I am and to truly believe that, and to not believe who the world says I am. To not live in a world of comparison or depending on others to find my worth, but instead trusting what the Lord says about me. I think its really easy to pour that truth into others, but God has been telling me to really believe it for myself.
I’ve grown so much in really knowing that the way the Lord sees me is beautiful. His love for me is deep and he wants nothing more than to have a relationship with me. When he sees me, he sees himself even when I don’t. He has chosen me and in his eyes I am blameless and forgiven. He has given me a purpose, not any small purpose, but a divine purpose he has planned out for me before I was even born. He is revealing that to me through his creation. He is showing me some of the most beautiful things and places and said to me so clearly “the beauty you see in that does not even compare to the way I see you.” He is teaching me that what people of the world say have no value when I am deeply rooted in who he says I am.
Before the Race started, I was so insecure about whether or not I could do this. I didn’t know if I was “a good enough Christian” or if I was even qualified to preach and tell people around the world about him. But in just one month God has stripped away so many of those lies and is showing me the authority he has given to me and that because of him I can do all these things with confidence. These were just lies the Enemy was feeding me, but instead of believing those lies I chose in. I chose to surrender the hard things, to let him in and allow him to strip down those lies, to ask each morning what the lord had for me that day. God has such an abundant life for me and I refuse to settle for anything less. The Lord is moving in big ways here, and I can’t wait to see what the next 8 months hold. I know it won’t always be easy but it will always be worth it.
