Jesus. wow what a guy. I’ve learned so, so much about him in just four months that I’ve never really paid attention to before. Growing up Christian and going to to church every Sunday I think I got into more of a routine than anything. I had a relationship with him, but I didn’t go to him for absolutely everything. More of when it was convenient for me or when it made sense to ask, but not for everything in my life.
I think now about all the opportunities I missed to minister to people in high school or the times when I really just missed what Jesus was saying to me, or just not really paying attention to this beautiful life he had for me. But thanks God for grace. And that he has a greater plan and is showing me what it really means to be in tune with the Holy Spirit. I could think all day about the things that I should have done or the life I should have been living. But I can’t do that. I can only focus on what’s in front of me.
I am so completely in love with Jesus. It blows my mind. I don’t have the words in my vocabulary to describe how I see him and the love I have for him. When I think about eternity with him, I’m just in awe. In awe at his goodness, his grace, the love he has for his children, and just all the beauty that is Jesus. I think one of the biggest things that he’s shown me is freedom. The freedom I’m living and walking in now because of Jesus is incredible. I’ve never felt this way in my life. It’s something I want everyone to feel. It doesn’t mean it comes free, but the freedom you gain for all your sacrifice is so much better.
Writing about Jesus and what he is teaching me is really hard sometimes. And I really think its because my love for the father has grown so much. And it isn’t an excuse for not liking to write blogs or not wanting to. Actually, I want to more than ever. I want others to know this love I have, and that they can have it too. But when I try to write about Jesus and all that he is, I don’t have words great enough to describe it. And wow I’m so thankful that he is greater than all my understanding.
This month has been more challenging. But I’m learning to look at the big picture. I’m so thankful for this season the lord has me in right now. Even in this season of rest, he never changes. He is constantly teaching me and pouring his love out on me. When I’m tired, or frustrated because not a lot is happening or I’m not doing what I would have chosen to do, I have to remember that he is constant. I’m so thankful that he’s using this experience to set a foundation for my life. I can’t wait to keep falling more and more in love with the father.
