Being on the world race again has been so familiar yet so different at the same time. I couldn’t wait to be back in another country, submerged in world race culture. Where there’s always something happening, always someone singing, or strumming a guitar, a game being played, and just the sound of people. But something was different this time. I got here and something big was missing. I don’t know why I didn’t realize it until I got here but my people were missing. It wasn’t my squad and my team. I was living in such a familiar way, but with different people. And it felt lonely in a way. I didn’t have my teammates that I was so used to doing this with.
But the way this new family has loved and served me has made this transition from the race to re entry to on the field again so sweet. It hasn’t been easy all the time but I have felt so welcomed in the process. I’m learning so much from gap z and it’s been the best time getting to know them and be a part of who they are. It’s been such a gift to be a part of the team the lord trusted me with. He provided me with people that love to have so much fun but also so hungry for growth.
I think one of my favorite parts of being here has been recognizing the amount of growth I’ve gone through in the past year. I really can’t put it to words all the lord has done since last September. I didn’t know so much change could happen. The lord has reminded me constantly of who I am and how I stepped into that this past year. I remember myself month one, and everything has changed. And it’s been really cool to see how the things I was so unsure about in myself a year ago, I’m now leading others in so confidently.
A word the lord spoke over me at the beginning of my race was “rise up”. And at that point I had no idea what that meant. But all this time the lord saw something in me I couldn’t see. He saw all the gifts and all the things I was going to step into. He saw the things I was qualified to do that I told myself I would never be able to do. He knew I needed to step out. To step out of my insecurity, to stop waiting for someone else “better” to bring kingdom, and to just let go and let myself be his daughter. And I believe I did that. And because of that I can walk in those things and lead others in them.
This season of team leading has been so much fun. I love being a part of this community and having the opportunity to continue growing in leadership. I’m learning what it looks like to give to the racers but also receive, and it’s been so good. Thank you again for your continued support in my journey. I appreciate your prayers always!
