I am not sure what you believe and what kind of things catch your interest, but I believe that a lot of things signify deeper meanings.
For example, my favorite color.
I mean that is what this blog is specifically about. How my favorite color changed as I changed.
This year on the World Race has transformed me more than I could express to you.
I walked into this year as my favorite color being gray.
You can ask my friends back home and on the race what I like to wear, what I would buy, anything….it was usually gray.
I just liked to look at the color gray, I like to wear it, I liked to decorate with it. I just liked it.
I've been looking up the color gray and its meaning, which has found me on a couple of color psychology websites.
Over all this is the main meaning of gray that I could find,
The color gray is an unemotional color. It is detached, neutral, impartial and indecisive – the fence-sitter.
indecisive, non-emotional, indifferent, boring, sad, depressed, lifeless, lonely, isolated
That's how I was at the beginning of the race…indecisive, detached and impartial to my life. I didn't have a lot of direction, I didn't believe that I could go a lot of places, mainly because I didn't know that a lot of places existed.
I didn't have the confidence, so I just "didn't care."
I was depressed.
I had no hope and no future, even though I had convinced myself I did. It was a bleak horizon.
In one of my team times early on the race, I was told that the color red represented me the most. I was mad.
I hated red and I didn't feel that it represented me at all.
But I glued the little piece of paper reading red in my journal in hopes that God would maybe give me more on it.
But I really doubted anything would come of it.
As I continued the year loving on people, exploring new places and getting to meet new faces, I began to learn that there is so much more to this world and so much more that God can do with me.
There are so many pathways, so many steps, so many things to strive for. I had to stop putting God in a box and let myself jump into the full reality that there is more than what I have been taught at home.
There is a whole world of ideas and things for me. I am not stuck in a bubble, I have the whole world to dive into.
As I slowly transitioned, I started wearing and buying more colors than just gray…I actually started buying more red.
In India, month 4, thats about the only color I wore.
Then in the past couple of weeks, in between month 8 and 9, I realized that I liked red more than gray.
My new favorite color is red.
I learned also from that color psychology website about what red stood for.
The color red is a warm and positive color associated with our most physical needs and our will to survive. It signifies a pioneering spirit and leadership qualities, promoting ambition and determination. It is also strong-willed and can give confidence to those who are shy or lacking in will power.
stimulating and driven, courageous and strong, spontaneous and determined.
Like my new favorite color changing, so have I.
I am a lot more bold, spontaneous, and determined.
I am moving full speed ahead with God directing me.
I realized that I have a lot more strength than I ever imagined and also more endurance. I have a lot more dreams and insights that I am pushing towards. Pushing onto things I never thought I could do.
Gray was the old me.
Now I am red.
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