I know The World Race is going to be hard.
I've been trying to prepare myself for that.
But, after my world was shaken on Monday I'm not sure I can prepare myself for next year.
There are so many anniversaries that I am going to have to face away from my friends and family.
And they aren't two, five, or ten year anniversaries.
They are the first anniversary.
My daddy's birthday – the one he won't be at.
The day he died.
The day we made the arrangements.
They day of his funeral.
I'm sure on these days I'm going to want to curl up in a ball and grieve.
Every emotion will still be so fresh.
I'm not going to want to hug old ladies, feed kids, have feedback, be nice to my teammates…
Is that ok?
Do I even have the right to feel this way?
Will anyone understand?
I'm not doubting whether or not I should go on the race.
I know this is where God wants Justin and I to be.
I just wish he wasn't making it so much harder…
