Who He is & who I’m not.
Letting go of doubt.
Trusting.
Attitude adjustment.
Patience.
Humbleness.
Loosened grip on control.
Broken chains.
FREEDOM.
Confidence in my Lord.
Importance of blessing others.
Details are His.
The sun rises slowly & gently over the city, awakening each sleepy eye with delicate care. I sit on the roof & let the warmth wash over my face & permeate through my skin, warming me to the bones. I’m lost in who He is & how much He cares for me.
I’m really letting it sink in, ya know?
A few minutes earlier I stared at the screen of my iPad, taking in the moment I had been waiting for, the moment that I could finally say that I was fully funded.
Well friends, I AM FULLY FUNDED!
Peace washed over me & through me. By this time, I had full faith in God (it wasn’t always that way). I knew He was going to finish providing for me in His time. This was His time.
This fundraising road has been long, it’s been hard, it’s been emotionally and physically draining at times, it’s been exhausting, and it’s been 110% worth every moment. I would not trade it for anything & I would do it all over again if it meant that I would continue to learn so many vital lessons.
Fundraising is NOT easy & I have definitely learned that it is not by my own strength or anything that I did that brought the funds in. What I did learn is that if you are obedient to God’s will for your life, it doesn’t matter what you’re doing, where you’re going, who you are or who you know. It doesn’t matter if it costs one dollar or one million dollars. If God is in it, if He asked you to do it-He pays for it. He moves the hearts of His people. He handles all of the details. You, my friend, or myself (in this case), had absolutely nothing to do with it. We never do, no matter how much we think we do & trust me, I thought I did.
I have been so extremely humbled through this fundraising experience. I have such a new & fresh trust in my God that I’ve never experienced before. Sometimes you just gotta get those hard lessons and go through the tough times to come out stronger than before…hang on because it’s worth it! It’s invigorating. It’s freeing. It’s the life I could’ve never dreamed of because it continues to grow into something I could’ve never imagined, even in my wildest dreams. He just continues to bless me and surprise me. It’s an exciting life that He and I live together.
The possibilities are endless for me because my dreams aren’t too big for my Main Man.
So what’s next?? Well, I’m going to press in hard to what God has for me in the last four months of this crazy journey. I’m going to squeeze the towel dry with what He has for me…and after that?? I don’t know, maybe I’ll study journalism at UNC so I can capture the stories that need to be told, even better maybe I’ll go to law school and get a degree so I can tangibly fight the injustice in this world, or maybe I’ll start fundraising for The Gypsy Caravan-the latest adventure that God started birthing in my mind nearly five months ago. Who knows?! None of these dreams are too big for my God who’s already got it handled.
I am SO EXCITED for this life. Yesterday one of our contacts here in Nepal was teaching us before we went to do outreach in the slums & one thing he said has stuck in my mind.
“He took you out of your story & put you into His story, and that’s the best story to be in.”
This life is His story, it’s not my own. I don’t know the ending yet, but I hope the last line goes a little something like this…
“Well done, my good & faithful servant, my beautiful & precious daughter, I love you. Jump into my arms…Welcome Home!”
To my supporters: I love you. Thank you. Seriously, thank you for your obedience.
