[[this blog was written last night]]
I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed
What God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands one who is my Savior
Okay…I’ve been selfish & it’s been revealed to me. I am ashamed that I’ve been selfish in not loving the unlovable. I have not loved the way that people need to be loved, the way that Jesus loves. I have not even considered anyone else’s hearts other than mine. I have not cared to see people the way Jesus sees people. Satan had blinded me and Jesus was FINALLY able to break through to me tonight. I hadn’t realized the sin that encompassed my own life. The intercession, the “standing in the gap” that Jesus has been desperately begging me to do in this last six months-I was refusing to do because of what that might mean for MY friendship. I didn’t care. I didn’t realize that I didn’t care until tonight.
It’s not about me. Good grief, how many times does God have to explain that to me before it freaking sinks in?! It’s not about me at all. It’s about Him saving the lost, healing the sick & broken, restoring all that’s been written off as lost, breathing life into dry bones, setting hearts afire for Him, breaking down walls, laying his foundation, building His kingdom, preparing the way.
Being radically sold out to Jesus is the only option. Being in His word, knowing His truth, trusting His truth, being in His presence, putting on His armor, fighting this battle, this battle that is destroying our families, our homes, our lives, our beings, having the courage to intercede, to shut Satan down, to bring the lost home, to stand in the gap, to PRAY for the unlovable & to have the courage to ask for the strength to love like Jesus loves.
Because we have no other option people, Satan is prowling & he is demolishing everything. Digging his claws in deep that it hurts too badly to try and remove them so we just continue to abide by his lies.
My spirit is angry that as followers of Jesus we still continue to let Satan reign in our workplace, in our daily lives, in our churches, in our minds. That we are too timid or too focused on what “that person” coming to Christ would look like for ourselves, what that would mean in our lives. OH MY GOSH, ridiculous. What that means is our army is one more STRONGER! Why would we not want that?!
People, I am ashamed, ashamed that I’ve been acting & thinking this way. Ashamed that I have to admit it in this moment but in the same breath I am so relieved, so relieved that Jesus loves us all enough to show us where we’re failing and give us hearts to love the unlovable, seek out Himself & His truth, and that His patience is like nothing we’ve ever experienced.
Prepare the way; love the unlovable, make the path straight for His coming.
We are called to do this.
