It has been 8 months, almost 9 since I applied and was accepted to The World Race. It seems like so long ago, yet time has flown. But now that I am a little over 3 months away from leaving, time has slowed. I am becoming impatient. I am ready to go.
I have been able to meet a couple of my squad-mates in person and others I have grown to know and love over many skype sessions and constant texting. I already feel like we are a family, which we soon will be. We will be traveling the world and living together to share the gospel to the nations… I mean, we are going to get to know each other pretty well. Probably better than we want sometimes…
Recently I have found myself constantly day dreaming about the race.
What will our everyday life look like?
Who will my team be?
What will training camp look like?
As I said, I beyond excited to go, but I am not living in the present. I am so focused on the future, that I am letting my days whisp on by without really living them to the fullest. It becomes very difficult to pursue God when I am living like this.
Honestly though, this isn’t a new problem that is just now popping up. I feel as if I am always dreaming about what the future will hold, even after the race.
Will I continue on in the field of education or will I pursue another career?
Will I move out of the country one day to further pursue overseas missions or will I forever live in Tennessee…?
Recently I have been learning to slow down. Take it day by day and find joy and peace in the little things that God provides for us.
Does that mean I can’t be excited about The World Race? Absolutely not. I am 100% pumped. But, it does mean that there is a time and place for me to express that excitement. I should not be worrying about World Race details when I am at work. And vice versa.
I want to live in the moment each day. I want to live to glorify His kingdom. But, that only happens if I make time for Him each day and live out the life He has given me whilst making the most of it.
Matthew 6:31-34 says:
“Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
This is a verse that I need to live by. Being anxious and impatient does not make things better, and it certainly does not glorify the kingdom. Seeking after the Lord does. And I pray that I can continue to learn this now and over the next year while I spread the gospel to the nations.
