Thank you dad for instilling a deep love for music and particularly talented musicians such as the 70’s vibrato singing long hair flowing STYX. Often times I think in song lyrics and song titles, insert the title above.
Recently I have been overwhelmed with my active imagination and how The Lord is totally awakening new passions and dreams. Passions and dreams that I believe He is asking me to walk in. All very separate ideas and dreams but all ones that would absolutely bring Him glory in my life, and that further the Kingdom.
I don’t believe we have ONE and only ONE calling, just like I don’t believe in one absolutely soul mate. I believe this puts God in a box that we as believers have to search high and low for that one absolute calling and hope and pray we got it right. But what if we don’t? Does that mean we aren’t in the will of God?
The past few months I’ve wrestled with frustration. Frustration that now, as a dreamer with Jesus, I have a few dreams that I want so badly to walk in, but lead me in different directions around the world. Dreams that are breathed out of the gifting’s and passions The Lord has given me, but dreams that don’t overlap. Dreams that I am so excited to pursue but I’m not sure which one to pick.
Why, Lord, are you stirring up all of these different dreams that I want to walk in? I really only have time in this life to pursue a few.
After much prayer and much wrestling, I believe the Lord gave me a picture to bring peace to my heart as I fervently pray about my future and what to start pursuing.
The picture was this:
Me, looking at a harbor full of sailboats. Completely full of similar-looking sailboats.
I was standing on the dock looking into the harbor full of these beautiful sailboats and knew that they represented different dreams The Lord has given me over this past year. As I stood there I felt the wind that I, even in the real world, associate as The Holy Spirit. As I watched the boats and breathed in the wind, I was ridding myself of my fears, comforts, personal plans, personal hopes, and instead was holding firmly onto what I believe the Lord has been instilling in me and revealing in the ‘Hannah’ He created me to be. As I was breathing in the wind, I noticed that the sailboats started sailing; many began to sail off into the horizon.
I firmly believe that this is a picture The Lord gave me to find peace in the fact that there isn’t ONE and only ONE calling on my life. There are many dreams I believe The Lord has given me over the past year, even before. All are different in execution but all similar in furthering the kingdom, having a heartbeat of discipleship, and bringing God glory. I have found so much peace in this powerful picture of the sailboats cruising off into the horizon, all looking different yet having the same end-goal.
So while I may not know which sailboat I’m hopping into yet, I know that there is a freedom that The Lord has entrusted me with: I get to chase after my dreams because in reality, it’s me chasing whole-heartedly after HIM who has given them to me.
I’m gearing up to enter the last month with the World Race, would you pray with me as I begin the transition of leaving the field and heading back to Kansas City and beyond?
