I just started month NINE of my world race! I’ve been overseas and away from my family, friends and home for 8 full months. I miss them. (Can’t wait to hug you all again so soon). But until then here’s my heart from a couple thousand miles away.
I got asked by some World Racer parents a couple months back
“What’s been the hardest part of the race?” I kinda just smiled and gave them an easy answer.
“I’ve been sick a lot.”
Truthful. But here’s the rest.
I’ve walked through and I’m still walking through a lot of hard seasons. Seasons I don’t understand sometimes.
I’m broken from the death of my grandma and the 3 other family members we’ve lost this year. I’m broken from boys treating me poorly. I say boys, because I know now that a man treats you right.
I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety. While watching my friends and family walk through things that I wish so badly I could be there for.
I’ve been sick almost the entire 8 months with bronchitis, heart problems and viruses.
I’m still fundraising and trusting that Jesus will provide. I still don’t know much about two months from now. None the less, next year or my entire future.
I really don’t have much left to give. But when we’re weak. He’s strong. What I do have left I’m handing over every single day.
I’ve experienced so much pain during the race but I have also found so much freedom in his name.
Im not faking it, I’m broken and healing but I have faith. I have love. I have hope. I’m trusting in the king to bring me through these battles to victory.
I’ve come so far. I’m gonna celebrate that today and everyday, I’m gonna be a kid. A child of the king. Because even though I’m walking through seasons. For who knows how long. This journey is sweet.
I’m still gonna dance in front of sunsets. I’m still gonna climb trees. I’m still gonna swim in rivers. I’m still gonna help people find freedom. I’m still gonna have joy. I’m still gonna cry. I’m still gonna fight these battles and more. But I’m still gonna worship and be in awe of him. He’s good all the time. Sometimes I don’t feel or see his goodness. But I know he’s there. I love him and the places he’s taken me.
