Hello friends and family!!! I am alive and I am in Kenya….Kijabe to be more precise. We arrived safely on the 14th of September, after an 8 hour layover in London. Internet has been hard to come by since then because we have been living out of tents in two different African villages. Wednesday we arrived back in Kijabe where we will be stationed for the remainder of our time in Kenya. Our first week we spent with the Massai tribe (spelling is probably wrong) and this past week we were with the Tocunca tribe (once again, spelling is probably off). God showed up in some incredible ways in these villages! Please check out the Kenya blog page to read participant stories. http://kenya.adventures.org. I could write 100 blogs about what God has been doing, but seeing that time is limited, I will just write one.
“And if our God is for us, who can ever stop us? And if our God is with us, what can stand against?”
These are lines from the song “Our God” by Chris Tomlin, and we’ve been singing that alot here in Kenya. And during worship a few nights ago something finally clicked in me. If God is on my side, nothing can stop me from sharing His love and nothing can stop me from deepening my relationship with Him. NOTHING. For so long I have been focused on all these things in my life I need to improve on. All the crap that is there in my heart still- unforgiveness, insecurity, fear, etc. The stuff that all of us have at one point or another. For so long I have seen these things in my life and thought “I need to get rid of all this so I can be closer to God, so I can receive God’s love more, so I can love God more.” As I was singing the words above under the blanket of a truly incredible, mind blowing starry night sky, I realized that even all this stuff can’t hold me back from God. God is bigger then EVERYTHING in this world, even my crap. Since God is with me, even my faults, my sin, my mistakes, can’t separate Him from me. This is something we have been sharing over and over again these past 2 weeks during hut to hut evangelism: nothing can separate you from the love of Christ! (Romans 8:38-39) And it’s the truth. I don’t care what you’ve done, what you are doing, what you will do, God is still going to love you and He is still with you. I had to ask myself, why do I insist on thinking that this crap in my life has any power over God and mine’s relationship? Because it doesn’t. It only appears to have power because I think it does. By giving all this crap, all this stuff that was going on in my head and my heart power I am taking power away from God….does that make sense? He is more powerful, stronger, bigger, greater, awesome-er then anything in this world…ANYTHING…..This realization literally caused me shout praises to God! I started jumping and dancing (which is fairly normal these days for me during worship); I felt so much lighter and I had so much joy, I couldn’t contain myself. I think some of the participants thought I was crazy….but I am crazy, so that’s okay! If you told me 2 years ago I would shout, jump, and dance for God, I would have laughed and said “yeah, okay…..I’ll believe it when I see it.” Well, I must have seen it because I can’t stop dancing and jumping now!
I hope this all makes sense to you out there, if not, oh well! It’s what I’ve got for now! I was hoping to post a bunch of pictures but unfortunately that is just not going to happen this time around…..maybe next time??? Also, I am still in need of some financial support, about $1000 to reach my final goal of $3000! Please click on the Support Me link on the left if you wish to help a sister out!!!
