I don’t think I ever knew what the power of being honest really could do for a persons life until I began my own journey of honesty. Honesty with myself, with the body of Christ, with family, friends, and most importantly with God. I used to be a pro at keeping my life to myself. Carrying around burdens, sorrows, secrets, feelings. I was trying to carry the weight of my tiny little world on my shoulders. And man can that be overwhelming.
There is freedom in sharing your life, all of it, with a body of believers. I have been so blessed to have found sisters and brothers in Christ to encourage, support, challenge, and speak straight up hard truth into my life. And it has been a blessing to me that they have allowed me to see the reality of their lives as well. It’s a great reminder that we are not alone.
Now let me be so super honest with you. God has so evidently told me and proved time and time again that the World Race is His will for 11 months of my life. It’s exciting, scary, sad, wonderful, confusing…all the emotions. I think my heart is having a really hard time being obedient. I’m going, that I’m quite certain of that, but I’ve just been thinking so much about what I’m leaving behind.
A community of SO MANY people that I love. People who know me, love me, and have found a home in my heart. I know the Race is only 11 months, but seriously SO much can happen in 11 months. I know that I won’t come back as the same person. God is going to refine, shape, and mold me. They will be here falling in love, having babies, getting married, finishing school. They too will be refined and molded by the Lord. So many changes….
And I’m afraid. What if I come back and so much has changed that I lose my fit? What if the puzzle changes and the Hannah piece no longer fits? I’ve spent a good portion of my adult life moving around trying to find my fit. And I finally found it. I can’t imagine losing it.
This is where I have to examine my heart. This is where the rubber meets the rode. If my life is truly all about Jesus then I have to be willing to give EVERYTHING to Him. Every detail. Every friend. Every relationship. Following Jesus is an all or nothing. I choose all. I choose to trust that He has planned something even more incredible then I could ever imagine. That when He called me on the Race, this is what He was asking. He was asking me if my life is truly His. And though obedience is sometimes SO hard, I choose to walk with Jesus. Holding His hand. Because He won’t lead me where He won’t go. And I won’t go where He won’t lead.
As I hold Jesus’ hand through this adventure, I ask that you be praying for my heart. That I will surrender it ALL to Him. That I will be wise and honest and trust Him.
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If you feel led to give to the Lords work through my life on the Race, there is a link to the left that will allow you to partner with me financially. This is a journey that isn’t just for me, but for you as well. To watch and pray as the Lord moves in big ways around the world.
I want to thank you in advance for every prayer and/or dollar that you give. I couldn’t do it without you. May the Lord bless you.
