Wow! I am still trying to catch my breath from this past week at training camp. I learned so much about God and myself. I was stretched physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I’ve had a hard time writing about training camp because my thoughts are still a bit jumbled. I can’t quite seem to get a fluid thought process going. Because of this I am going to break up this blog into sections.
What we did…
I camped out with 50+ people, “slept” on school bus, lost my personal space, ate food from all over the world, and worshiped in ways I never had before. In an effort to protect future Racers experiences I have decided to leave this section vague. Part of the experience of training camp is not having a schedule or knowing what is going to happen. If you would like to hear more of what exactly I did please send me an email.
The worst part…
I have to admit that training camp started off rough for me. The first couple of days were packed so full of activities and sermons that I hardly had time to catch my breath let alone process what was happening in and around me. Add in the non-stop rain, sleep depravation, and trying to get to know 50+ people and you have a recipe for disaster. BUT, it wasn’t a disaster. Sure at times I felt like crying in defeat but I saw God working in all of it to draw me closer to Him. I was pushed outside my comfort zone.
The best part…
Looking back, the turning point of the week was when we camped out as a squad in the woods. I think this was a turning point because: A. I love nature and was able to spend some alone time over looking God’s beautiful creation (a big form of worship for me). B. I started to really get to know my squad mates and feel comfortable around them. It takes me a while to feel comfortable and this was the first extended time we were given with each other.
What God did in me…
It’s no secret that I do not have great self-confidence. I, like many other people, struggle with feeling not good enough. I have already touched on this in a previous blog. I felt like nobody would like me, that God couldn’t use me, and I wasn’t Christian enough. Last week God reached out to me and told me that I am good enough and that I have been called to the World Race and that He will equip me. I was chosen for this! As God was speaking this life into me I began to realize that my feelings of not being good enough were really connected to the fact that I was doubting that God was powerful enough and good enough to do work through me.
I wasn’t doubting myself, I was doubting God!
Folks, God is not limited our abilities!
“God does not call the equipped; He equips the called”
Fundraising Update!
I need $723.93 by June 17th to meet my next deadline of $6,500. Once I reach this deadline I can officially launch from Atlanta on July 4th! I leave in 34 days!!!
