When God Confirms in His Own Way

I am rather a self-aware, careful person. I don’t want to make a mistake and get so involved in something that I try to be preventive God saying “Hey, stop” or “Hey, I have other plans.” 

Which, I’m still trying to find a balance of being between being self-aware and letting the Holy Spirit speak to me (which is way better).

However, especially with big areas of my life or big decisions I try and leave room for God to say “no.”

And that’s exactly what I did with the World Race.

I’m very excited about it for so many reasons, but it is going to be a big part of my life between energy spent preparing for it, fundraising, buying gear, etc. So, I asked God to confirm it.

And well. He did. In a rather surprising way.

One of squad mates on our Facebook page posted a blog by a current Racer named Brooks Driver. It was entitled “The World Race Sometimes Sucks.”

I definitely appreciated it. The World Race will definitely NOT be rainbows and butterflies. 

Sometimes I’m going to be exhausted and crabby.

Sometimes I’m going to get annoyed with my teammates.

I’m going to see things, hurting people, that I can’t imagine at this moment.

 

So there was, in my hotel room (because my uncle and I are road tripping), with this sinking feeling.

I don’t think I can do this. There is no way. I know my weaknesses.

God, is this really what you want me to do?

I know what I’m going to see and go through is going to be rough. I’m going to be challenged. It’s going to suck at times.

 

However, at the same time I grew in conviction. 

People are my heart. Honestly, it’s really the only thing that makes me tear up.

I see parents adopting a sweet child from an orphanage. I tear up.

I see the Syrian refugees struggling. I tear up. 

You get my point.

 

And so, I’m doing the hard thing. I know I’m going to face challenges. I know I’m going to probably complain at times. And I’ll be tired. But I know this is what God’s called me to do. It’s my heart. 

 

So in short, it’s more of a feeling of conviction than than a big, blatant sign. But that’s okay. 

Thanks God. You are cool.